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| Posted: Dec 27, 2007 10:26 a.m. - Subject: im fucked |
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The name has nothing to do with the rest of the post.
Iv been feeling depressed for a while now, its just that all of a sudden its gotten worse and i have no idea why. I have a gf that i really like, i have more friends now that my hor ex-gf is gone and im gettin better in life (as it appears)
Now i have never been the emo type and have never cut myself or anything like that. I love my life even though im a looser (i know this and dont have a problem admitting it)
Iv been living 14.5 (i say im 15...) years by my self pretty much, with the exception of my 4 friends.
2 nights ago i had a loaded 12 gauge held point blank at my head, and i started pulling the triger but then my gf called me on my cell so i put the gun down and answered.
why the fuck am i like that? Usually im never optimistic about things but i have never been this depressed. Yeah some pplz r going to say its puberty. no it aint... the random ass mood swings that come during that arent what im goin through now. I get depressed for weeks at a time.
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| Posted: Dec 27, 2007 11:11 a.m. - Subject: |
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don’t end it just cause of an ex, there is someone out there that will love you they way you should be loved
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| Posted: Dec 27, 2007 11:11 a.m. - Subject: |
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Relax. Since it’s vacation time, take that time to do what you can’t do when you have school. Go enjoy nature, take some alone time. Relieve yourself from stress and don’t go places where you will be surrounded by people. Do things that you enjoy doing. Do things that raise your self esteem like kicking someone’s ass in something you’re good at. Clean your living space (your room).
List of random things that help me out.
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| Posted: Dec 27, 2007 11:14 a.m. - Subject: |
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Quote from Restricted: now that my hor ex-gf is gone and im gettin better in life (as it appears)
Quote from GMT: don’t end it just cause of an ex, there is someone out there that will love you they way you should be loved
How about reading carefully before replying?
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| Posted: Dec 27, 2007 1:29 p.m. - Subject: |
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Your not the only one Restricted, millions of people suffer from depression, its a VERY common thing.
Even I get depressed sometimes for no reason. Its part of human nature.
When it makes you want to kill yourself tho, THATS NOT.lol
So i think you need to seek some professional help, you might even need some pills. Seriously.
i know it might be hard to being open to trying new meds, but if you really want the relief of depression then you’ll do it.
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| Posted: Dec 27, 2007 7:14 p.m. - Subject: |
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I know that depression is a common thing.
I will almost never cry (maybe once every month or so)
and now recently iv been crying myself to sleep and i dont know why im doin that.
I cant tell my parents or most of my friends because they would laugh because they think im making it up or something.
I have never opened up to anybody. One of my friends that i am almot always with doesnt even know.
Isnt there anything else other then telling someone?
Its not like i have a fucked up family. my family=better then most there. I dont get beat on or picked on, actully its quite the opposite.
Most people think that i have almost everything and in relity, i have nothing to live for.
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| Posted: Dec 27, 2007 11:54 p.m. - Subject: |
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Quote: How about reading carefully before replying?
well okay maybe I missread that, I thought he said something about being upset because of his ex
sheesh
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| Posted: Dec 28, 2007 3:42 p.m. - Subject: |
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Hey think of evryone who cares about you before you end it. It is not fair to them. Also it could be that you are just bored just wait until till school starts up,
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| Posted: Dec 28, 2007 4:52 p.m. - Subject: |
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lol everybody that cares for be=10 people family included.
and this has been going on even in school
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| Posted: Dec 29, 2007 3:12 p.m. - Subject: |
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You have the answer to your problems already.........you have no one to talk to.
and it doesnt matter how great your life is or how many materials things you have, if you have no one to talk to about your inner most feelings, then thats a huge problem.
And i want to know what makes you think that if you tried to tell your mom or dad that youve been really depressed and you dont know why, that they would "laugh at you" or think your "making it up" if you havnt even tried?
You know women have the biggest depression issues from what i hear, so if you have a nice mom try catching her alone and talking to her. Its all about finding the right time to SAY IT.
If you spend time with your mom and she asks you whats been going on at school or where ever, you could say "uuuummmm i dont know, i just been really depressed and i dont know why ugghhh"
something like that.
are you getting this?
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| Posted: Jan 06, 2008 1:15 p.m. - Subject: |
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Yea i understand what you mean, i just dont like to tell ppl that i know (thats why RE doesnt count) about my problems and why my life is fucked up. in a sense i bottle up my problems and thats how i deal with them
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| Posted: Jan 06, 2008 1:45 p.m. - Subject: |
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Well your gonna have to get over that.
Letting out your feelings doesnt make you a pussy. It makes you an open person.
Chicks dig that also. = )
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| Posted: Jan 06, 2008 6:21 p.m. - Subject: |
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The only thing you can really do to help if you think you are depressed is talk to someone. I would suggest talking to your girlfriend about it. It seems like you really love her. Make sure she knows that she pretty much saved your life. Knowing someone loves you makes it feel a lot less worse. I had the same problem. But really, if you go to the doctors for anything, a physical or whatever, tell them how you feel. They are not allowed to speak to your paernts about it unless you give them consent. If you do think that you bottle it up, then getting it out when you talk to someone may just be all you need. But really, someone needs to know about it.
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| Posted: Jan 07, 2008 12:57 p.m. - Subject: |
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Quote: When it makes you want to kill yourself tho, THATS NOT.lol
Quote: Most people think that i have almost everything and in relity, i have nothing to live for.
Quote: in a sense i bottle up my problems and thats how i deal with them
That’s an oxymoron.
If you’re too nervous/embarrassed/etc to talk to those you are well acquainted with and can’t get a cousellor/doctor/stranger of some sort to discuss things with then talk to yourself. If you feel foolish doing so then write your thoughts down in a journal or something.
You’re too young to decide upon how long you live just yet. You haven’t experienced enough to judge where you’re headed and whether or not you are/will be happy with your life.
If you make it to thirty and you still haven’t found anything you want to live for (if you don’t have a goal, not if you haven’t reached said goal) then go through with ending it all. I agree with Hume; no man (I’m specific on the definition of man - not boy or lunatic, etc) ever threw away life while it was worth keeping.
Give yourself time to live before you decide to die.
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| Posted: Jan 08, 2008 9:50 p.m. - Subject: |
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Try traveling.
Go see some long time friends or extended family for a while. Go hang out, have fun with people who you know care, and everything will works itself out.
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| Posted: Jan 11, 2008 7:41 p.m. - Subject: |
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A few of you say i just need to talk to someone. Theres another problem, theres no one who wants to listen. I said that a friend of mine died right? well the was the only girl that was actully willing to talk to me, but seeing as she is now dead i can no longer do that.
garg-I cant travel seeing as im only 14
miss sunshine-problem with me talking to my gf is, i dont have a gf. I have had one girlfriend in the past 14 years, and as i said in the origonal post, i broke up with her because she was a slut.
Lots of people are mis understood when they say they want to commit suicide. Usually they are wrong too...
If you just dont want to live, then you are empty, you have nothing to live for, no one cares about you and you have nothing to hold on to, nothing to keep you going from day to day.
if you want to kill yourself, then you have a goal
i fall under the first one. I dont want to kill myself, i just dont want to live. I have no reason to.
honestly i do cut myself (please dont give me shit about it, im not emo and i dont fall under the emo stereotype)
Its hard to keep living knowing that if you died suddenly, then no one would care. basically im drowning, and when theres no one there to drown with you, then that only makes it harder and more painful (emotionally) as in my case
So im empty. Theres nothing i have to live for (i dont wanna kill myself)
My life is intolerable. Before alyiece (pronounced like alice) died she told me that if she had to live her life her life like im forced to live mine, then she would have (intentionally) killed herself.
Everyone else just sees what they want and label me as freak, or emo or some other group and hate me even though they have no reason to.
I dunno what to do or how much more i can take. Most people even st school have shit lives, but they dont realize it because they believe that people are their friends. Im the only one who actully realizes that i have nothing.
As days go by my life becomes even more miserable. What do i do?
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| Posted: Jan 12, 2008 1:48 a.m. - Subject: |
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Quote: A few of you say i just need to talk to someone. Theres another problem, theres no one who wants to listen.
Counselors are paid to listen.
Talk to yourself - write in a journal of some sort.
Quote: garg-I cant travel seeing as im only 14
Did you read her post?
She suggested staying with friends or family who are far enough away from where you live to give you a break on those grounds (whether or not you have friends/family who are distant enough or who will take you in is another story). No suggestion of traveling on your own was made, so I assume she realized/read that you are only fourteen.
Quote: miss sunshine-problem with me talking to my gf is, i dont have a gf. I have had one girlfriend in the past 14 years, and as i said in the origonal post, i broke up with her because she was a slut.
Quote: I have a gf that i really like, i have more friends now that my hor ex-gf is gone and im gettin better in life (as it appears)
You mentioned a gf you said you like and an ex that you called a whore in a single sentence; it’s obvious why the fact that you have both a current and an ex-girlfriend would be assumed.
Quote: if you want to kill yourself, then you have a goal
Suicide is not a goal. I could explain why but that would be futile.
Quote: Now i have never been the emo type and have never cut myself or anything like that.
Quote: honestly i do cut myself (please dont give me shit about it, im not emo and i dont fall under the emo stereotype)
See how you contradicted yourself there?
Rather than give you shit I’ll question you about it…
How exactly does adding physical pain to your mental anguish distract or relieve any of your distress rather than add to it?
Self-mutilation is a symptom of serious mental illness.
’Emo kids’ who play around rather than injure themselves are simply crying out for attention.
Either way there is a problem that demands psychological help... or the fulfillment of plans for suicide.
Quote: As days go by my life becomes even more miserable. What do i do?
Find something you want to pursue in life and do so.
Give yourself time to realize what you want and give yourself a lifetime to attain whatever goals you’re striving for. You’re fourteen; you can’t expect to have a truly fulfilling life yet.
Bottom line: Be fucking patient.
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| Posted: Jan 19, 2008 8:51 p.m. - Subject: |
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I give up. let it all fucking slip away
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| Posted: Jan 19, 2008 9:13 p.m. - Subject: |
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what if i call you on the phone.
Or have Audrey do it.
Would it help to talk to someone from RE?
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| Posted: Jan 26, 2008 6:54 p.m. - Subject: |
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Quote: Theres another problem, theres no one who wants to listen.
Write it all up and post it in forums (where it’s not full of idiots). Most of the time it helps me get rid of stress. For the other part, just do things you like. ATM, I don’t know what i want to do with my life, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t enjoy; talk to girls, exercise, focus in school, etc.
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