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Power Egg
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Posted: Jul 09, 2007 12:17 p.m. - Subject:
the fact that you aren’t scared by death is good, fear is weakness. but in the normal course of things you should have a will to live. you don’t. your depressed. that’s all its not that big of a deal, most people are. eventually when you find a reason to live (the cause of your depression is the lack of that), be it a girl, a wife, a friend, or even a job or hobby. once you find that, you’ll be fine.
Normal Egg
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Posted: Jul 09, 2007 12:23 p.m. - Subject:
Well... I had a girl and many friends, but I haven’t been allowed to see then since I got expelled for weed like 3 months ago. Lonely? Yes. Depressed? Sometimes, I have my ups and downs. All I have now is my guitar and my computer, I don’t care much for T.V.
Either way my parents are now required by law to put me in some sort of therapy program, we’ll see how that goes.
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Posted: Jul 09, 2007 12:29 p.m. - Subject:
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Lonely? Yes. Depressed? Sometimes, I have my ups and downs.
depression isn’t a mood, you can be depressed in general and still be in a good mood. its a STATE of mind, not a FRAME of mind.
stick to the computers or guitar and have fun, but if you noticed, tose are both individual activities. you need a group activity were you interact with othe people.
Normal Egg
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Posted: Jul 09, 2007 12:40 p.m. - Subject:
I’m not allowed to interact with people anymore... This has lead to several arguments with my parents. They just don’t understand, they try to group me in with people I have nothing in common with.
It’s like they’ve been waiting for something to blame for the way I am, drugs are just a scapegoat. Drugs haven’t really changed me, maybe mind has opened, but I’ve always behaved the way I do now. They’d like to believe all my friends aren’t really friends, but just drug connections. So they figure, take away the friends, I change drastically.
They don’t understand anything that’s going on and whenever I try to help them understand they shrug it off and go back to trying to push me through this mold and I just can’t fit through it.
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Posted: Jul 09, 2007 1:02 p.m. - Subject:
I’m 16. My parents are fairly conservative, but they are much less so than they were when they raised my half sister. back then there were strict rules on what could be watched on T.V., and what music could be listened to. It was like your typical conservative Christian household. My sister wouldn’t have any part of that. She dropped out of school and got kicked out of the house. She’s doing well now, she’s married with two kids and is training to be a nurse. She’s only my half sister like I said, she’s twice my age.
It’s always been different for me, my parents have always let me listen to what I want and watch what I want. They’ve always encouraged me to be who I wanted to be, which is why I’m so confused as to what they are trying to do here.
They keep trying to get me to hang out with people I have no desire to talk to. I have nothing in common with these kids and I have not been able to connect with one of them. We have different interests and standards, it just doesn’t work. These are people I would never give a second glance at in any typical social situation.
It’s funny, I have been playing their game up until now, but they still refused to let up. I think that’s what ultimately led up to this whole thing.
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Posted: Jul 09, 2007 1:21 p.m. - Subject:
Ohh ok, i see.
Well, what happens when you tell your parents to stop bringing kids over that you know like?
Maybe they are trying to help you make new (better) friends and although as parents it sounds honorable at heart, they really are not helping.
Its natural for parents to want to see their kids shine so to speak.
Unfortunately, its also natural for them to kind of push you into it because thats part of what comes with raising a child.
The difference is being able to know when your helping and when your not, and i guess they just are seeing that its not helping.
The only thing you can try to do is talk to them at the right moment and let them know that as much as you appreciate them trying to help you make new friends, that, that is something you need to try to do on your own.
Its ether that or you act like a dick to every kid they try to bring to you....and in front of them too so that they can see what they have done to you.
But why get some innocent kid involved that has nothing to do with your family’s problems.
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Posted: Jul 09, 2007 1:35 p.m. - Subject:
I know they do what they do with the best of intentions. We’ve had a few arguments, but also a few long, mature conversations, but both have lead no where.
I’ve actually been trying my best to be nice to these kids, I’ve got nothing against them, just nothing for them. It just ends up being really awkward when we get down to trying to find something to do. We start by doing something they like to do, but when that doesn’t work out, we try something I like to do and that’s just as awkward. And we can’t go anywhere since my parents assume I’d just go see my old friends.
For now it looks like my only option is to ride things out. *Sigh*
This is all partially my fault I suppose. But birds gotta sing, stoners gotta smoke weed... it’s just sad things have to be this way now. All because of a communication breakdown.
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Posted: Aug 14, 2007 2:10 p.m. - Subject:
I will bump this to say that, it is not normal for you to feel that way, but there is a good reason. Death is not a choice, death is giving up. It seemed like you weren’t ready to give up, so you weren’t afraid of being taken by death.
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Posted: Feb 17, 2008 1:08 p.m. - Subject:
well i was going to say you had no fear becuase you were probably trippen really hard, buyt then ir ead your other near death experiences. you probably should think of what is good and great and what you haev to live for instead of how you dont care if you dont live
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Posted: May 26, 2008 12:04 a.m. - Subject:
dxm (the main chemical in coricedin) is a truley amazing chemical. it has done nothing but enrich my life and teach me more and more about my subconcious and the universe around me. It is truley a gift in my life, i cant imagine how unintelligent i would feel not knowing the power dxm can unlock in my mind. anyway i could go on for eons describing how its changed my life for the better, but keep in mind, while its unbelievably fascinating, you have to be careful about what your taking. CCC’s contain cpm, which can kill you when you take 20-30 of em, in the future always look for pure dxm, "long acting" robo is just syrup and pure dxm. Just check the back to see whats in it, if ther eis anything but dxm, your likely to overdose easily.
anyway, i think you need to do some more thinking on this matter of the way you feel about death, while on dxm. it sounds like a stupid thing to say but thinking while on dxm is an unbeilevable activtiy. the productivity of your mind is astonishing when your on this. a lot of thaughts while on dxm are difficult to translate into sober life, so go back, and think more, get more used to yourself and what you truley feel about everything, write it down and describe it to your self for when you come down.
i basicly wanted to say thaough that dxm is in my opinion the most unbelievable thing in the world, keep it in moderation and it can really help you with the way you stand in your mind. its hard to describe what im getting at but try a solid 4th plataue or upper 3rd platuae trip, and instead of trying to have fun, do what you were describing earlier, lay down and think the entire trip, youll be suprised with how much it will change your life.
anyway if you want to talk more about it send me a message or something, ive been using dxm for quite a few years now, and its not like any other drug.
